Making space for love

Today is Robert's Birthday and almost three years since we lost him. Impossible to think of that really. They say time heals but I'm not sure I'll ever get used to the space on earth that he no longer inhabits. It will always be just that to me, a space. His space. This photograph is on the pinboard in my kitchen - me and my other siblings on the lagoon beach in our home town. It was taken many years before Rob died and I don't remember why he wasn't there but, whenever I look at it now, I imagine him walking in the space between B and I, in the space that will always be his. 

Today, naturally, he's very much on my mind and I'm trying to focus on the love rather than the loss. Rob knew how to love. He was such a kind, open and loving person and despite hurts that would have left some of us too guarded to go there again, he did. I so admired that about him. 

I intend to crank up the music and spend some time painting today. He drew and painted so beautifully and I wish he could see what I'm doing now with colour and canvas, and how much I'm enjoying it. I think he would have approved. It would've been such fun to paint together, something we never had the chance to do. 

I'm also starting a blog series in honour of making space for love - the things I love, the places I love and, most importantly, the people I love. I'd like to rekindle the pleasure blogging brings me and that I've recently not made space for in the frenzy of work and the daily grind. I have no real plan except that I think it'll run for 42 days... one for each year that Rob lived and loved. 

Happy Birthday Rob! We miss you. Now and always.

K xox