Is it just me that finds it harder and harder not to want to go to bed when it's already been dark for a couple of hours, even if that makes it 7pm?
I'm certain I must have been, or am evolving towards, a life form designed to hibernate through the long dark nights. Especially after a very hard day at work all I can think of is warming up and then lying down with a book before drifting off to sleep as soon as possible after I walk through my front door. Usually things that need doing get in the way and I manage to stay up for several hours but every minute I'm thinking of how soon I can stop, have a relaxing bath and crawl under my duvet. Often insomnia strikes and I am left staring at the ceiling or pacing the floor but that doesn't take away the desire to sleep. I have never been a natural night owl.
Every now and again though I find that the combination of cold crisp air, bright lights and the buzz of shadowy people rushing past (in this case on their way to the shops, theatres or restaurants in the area) have such a vibrancy that I am re-energised by them and arrive home not wanting to curl up and sleep but to dance or paint or write into the small hours. Tonight was one of those. So I did.
What struck me as I pottered around at 2am is how I lucky I am to be able to do this. To do whatever I want, whether it's going to bed or not going to bed. I'm grateful for that.
Of course, now that it's nearly time to get ready and start the day, all I want to do is sleep...
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5 comments:
Hi,
It has been awhile since I've commented on here, but I wanted to say that this particular post hit close to home. I've never been a natural night owl either, and spend some long days in particular dreaming of sleep, only to find myself unable to at night.
You put it beautifully though, to be grateful that we can do whatever we like at 2am. :)
Hibernation must be down there in our makeup somewhere. I'm with you on the automatic desire for bed when the sun goes. You're also right about the ceiling-staring. Ergh!
Then there's the desire for all things buttery and fattening to add insulation--double Ergh! It would be easier to get out in the night if it weren't so chilly.
I desperately want to hibernate all winter long. I don't care much for cold weather OR long nights so I find that I have to fight the urge to avoid it all! I would much rather be in my warm cozy bed.
I so get it! The dark and cold make me want to take cover. You are lucky that you live as you do- you can be the boss and keep the lights on until 2:00 am if that suits you.
I can not relate to sleeplessness- but I have friends who can not sleep and it's a bugger! I am sure you have tried everything...maybe try reading an accounting book...instant snooze!
The image is so intriguing, with the dark silhouettes against the bright lights. And I'm with you. For some reason, the short days -- often rainy -- make me feel chronically cold and wanting to curl up under down comforters.
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