And I felt like my heart had been so thoroughly and irreparably broken that there could be no real joy again, that at best there might eventually be a little contentment. Everyone wanted me to get help and rejoin life, pick up the pieces and move on, and I tried to, I wanted to, but I just had to lie in the mud with my arms wrapped around myself, eyes closed, grieving, until I didn’t have to anymore.
Anne Lamott
You will lose someone you can't live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you will never completely get over the loss of a beloved person. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn't seal back up. And you come through. It's like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly - that still hurts when the weather is cold - but you learn to dance with the limp.
Anne Lamott
Arrived back in the northern hemisphere under a cloud yesterday - literally. Feeling a bit disconnected and discombobulated. Not sure how I'm going to resume 'normal' tomorrow when I have to return to work. I feel the have to closing in and it feels like too much, too soon.
But that's for tomorrow. Today I'm going to do laundry, sort through photographs, write, eat toasted cheese sandwiches, talk to my loved ones near and far... enjoy being back online... try to adjust to being back. Or is it forward?
But that's for tomorrow. Today I'm going to do laundry, sort through photographs, write, eat toasted cheese sandwiches, talk to my loved ones near and far... enjoy being back online... try to adjust to being back. Or is it forward?
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14 comments:
dear kenda, grieving such a huge loss is undoubtedly going to take time. and you may never truly heal. i am sure people around you understand that, and will not be expecting you to be back to your normal self just like that. give yourself time, and little by little, i hope that things get easier.
Kenda, I hope that once you begin your "normal" day to day life it will become easier. The old adage about time healing is true but knowing that doesn't make it any easier while you wait for time to heal. You will get there .... be patient with yourself. Love and hugs.
one day at a time. we missed you!
Thinking of you still...
Thinking of you and hope you are okay. Have missed your words. Sending lots of love to you xxxx
Dear Sweet Beautiful Kenda-lee- surround yourself with the love we feel for you and with the protective cloak of a South African breeze to get through the next while...Not a happy trip to have to make but you were home at least- that frayed cord strengthened. The north welcomes you- one of it's only bright lights! Thinking of you always, sending love.
ls
Appropriate and moving quotes. I think it will help to keep busy though it's a big hurdle, you'll find the strength - it's what he would want you to do. Take care and just go at your own pace.
Missed you and wish for you strength and hope.
what moving quotations ... it really does feel that way . Know that although I am "out here" I walk beside you thru your loss and pain and will lift you up as I gaze to the sky filled with blue much like the photos you included here...blessings elk
I am sad your are gone (from SA) and glad you are back (in blogland). Back and going forward ...
I have been thinking about you a lot and am glad you are back home safely. I hope tomorrow is ok. xx
Just do the best you can Kenda, give it your best try. I will be thinking of you dear Kenda.
Good to see you. Isn't Anne Lamott just wonderful?
Thinking of you...
I'm reading these all out of order, so pardon me for jumping back and forth through time.
Just know you are deep in my thoughts.
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